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so today, I came online to see someone rudely link me to an awful blog ful of loads of bullshit all about me. At first yes yes yes I was so upset, felt ill that someone I thought had a heart could write utter shit about someone they'd once called a genuine friend. Now I could be an utter bitch and write so much about them to make them just as upset as I was, but that would bring me down to their level. That is something I don't want to be. I'm not heartless enough, obviously not as heartless as him.

the blog read like this:
'Discontent

i never intended to write deeply important shit about myself on here, but i feel this is the only way i will my make my voice heard with one shot.

a few days ago someone literally threw me into the bin, closed the lid and walked away. in a sense, i should’ve been disgusted…but i’m not. i’ll put it this way; my toy fell apart before i could throw it away.
a melting ice cream or a bit of fun you could say.
i fucked you around, i pissed you off whenever i pleased, i made you happy whenever i pleased, i gave you false hope when i knew you never stood a chance. i fucked around with your mind and i enjoyed it so so much and it took you so long to realise. why i even saw you or even called you my friend is something i still don’t understand, because you are worthless.
enjoy your shitty life, everyone is starting to hate you. you’re scum that no-one cares about.

some of those lines will come into some lyrics i’m writing for a new music project. but they all having meaning with effect.'

Lets start at the beggining.

'a few days ago someone literally threw me into the bin, closed the lid and walked away. in a sense,' - You make it sound worse than it was. I was saving my own skin from being totured by your horrible attitudes anymore. I had enough of it and didnt want to deal with it.

'i should’ve been disgusted…but i’m not.' - This whole blog might not show that you were disgusted, but it obviously shows you cared enough and were pissed off enough to write a blog about it. Even more evidence, I hadnt spoken to you for two day preivious and you'd writte 'gem stop ignoring me' on one of your other blogs.

'i fucked you around, i pissed you off whenever i pleased, i made you happy whenever i pleased, i gave you false hope when i knew you never stood a chance. i fucked around with your mind and i enjoyed it so so much and it took you so long to realise.' - This all true, but what did you gain from this... nothing. I gained everything I wanted from this. what you dont realise is that it was always in my hands. I never tried that hard with you to get exactly what I wanted. I could have walked away any time I wanted and you still would have been as vexed as this blog shows you are now. sure it took me a while to click that you were just the worst person i've possibly ever met but i did realise and it pissed you off so much that I finally did something about it.

'why i even saw you or even called you my friend is something i still don’t understand, because you are worthless.' - yes but you did genuinly think I was such a good mate of yours. You once even valued me as one of your best mates, which must hurt knowing that I never held you so close to me. You never came any higher than the people I already knew were my life, but I once came higher than yours. How much must your friend life suck.

'enjoy your shitty life, everyone is starting to hate you. you’re scum that no-one cares about.' - No one but you is starting to hate me... I can pull out soo many names of people that care about me. I have no idea where you plucked this bullshit from.

'some of those lines will come into some lyrics i’m writing for a new music project.' - THIS MAKES ME LAUGH!